Grief Is: Endurance

Grief Is: Endurance

Grief is : endurance. I probably had unrealistic expectations for myself. I probably thought if I dug deep enough and did enough therapy and self reflection, that I could shorten the duration or lessen the intensity of grief. . When I imagined what life might look and...
When God Says “No” to Our Prayers

When God Says “No” to Our Prayers

Last week a toddler in California named Olive died suddenly and unexpectedly. People in Olive’s church and throughout the nation galvanized around the belief that Jesus is a miracle working God. They believed Him when He said we would do equal and greater works...
Grief Is: Dread

Grief Is: Dread

Grief is: anticipatory anxiety. A burning wick. A slow fade. A ticking clock. “How bad is this one going to hurt?” you ask yourself. Will it come in fits and starts? Will it suck me into its’ undertow until my lungs burn? Will it catch me off guard, a blow that...
Father’s Day 2020

Father’s Day 2020

Dear Micah, Happy Father’s Day! You’d be amazed at how the twins are growing. Eliana doesn’t even hesitate to throw herself off the high dive into a full layout. Levi runs for the pure joy of it, legs in full swing, a perfect mirror of your roadrunner stride. I think...
Revenge will not ease your pain

Revenge will not ease your pain

Manuel Zetina told his friend he’d kill a cop when he got the chance. I don’t know a lot about Manuel, the young man who murdered my husband. But what I do know allows me to infer some things. He was a minority. He was looking for the belonging and power that gang...
Rachael Flick